I can’t scream anymore
no one listens, not even me
who cares anymore?
because I cant breathe
my rage diverts inward
my rage screams at me
it spirals and cascades and fucks up everything in its path
it says things to me
it hurts me and then:

I hurt you, hurt your heart
I’m so sorry
I can’t apologize because we don’t do that
That is why we carry so much anger
layers and layers of unfogiven, buried pain
unable to share my feelings;  I start screaming and you stop listening

I can’t breathe
   My pain screams
       And no one can fucking see.